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one day, one day (i'd have to be wearing the tallest heels to be that much taller than him) | | |
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there, i posted something... viva la xanga!! | | |
| You know, nobody uses xanga anymore. I mean, you really can't blame them. Xanga has been outdone. However, there are things that I like to say that I know probably won't be read. And so I keep Xanga around.
Today I'd like to talk about the person deletion process. I don't know why, but it's really hard for me to delete people from my buddy list. Maybe because I think maybe I'll want to talk to them one day and I won't have their screen name anymore. However, just having them on there tempts me to check up on them. On AIM I might check their away messages. On Myspace I'll go to their site every now and then to see if they've posted a new blog, and who is commenting them. I heard a great term for this a while back: e-stalking. It's something none of us would normally do, but just having the person still listed as one of your friends tempts you to find out who they've been talking to or what they've been doing. I catch myself doing this sometimes and it get's really unnerving. I'm not that girl, I'm really not, but the internet is like a gateway drug. Therefore, I try to strictly adhere to the "no ex" buddy list. It's the best idea in the world to delete a person from your buddy list as soon as you break up. Otherwise you're reduced to stalker level. It's just so hard to delete people, for me anyway. I guess I keep hoping they'll come around, grow up. I know it won't happen, but there's a big difference between what I know and what I secretly hope. Luckily, I have decided to let my brain lead me. Today I went through my buddy list and removed people like ripping off a bandaid. Sure it was difficult, but it had to be done. I can move on now. However (and I feel the need to state this because otherwise I'd be letting myself off the hook too easily), I did not block them. This means that even though I have no temptation to contact them, they can contact me if they have the inclination. This isn't necessarily me wimping out. I'm leaving room for redemption for each and every one of them if they want it, but I am no longer going to initiate anything. So when they decide to grow up and feel like having an adult conversation, I'll still be around. The End.  | | |
| It's been a good 2 months, maybe i should update. hmmm... nothing new, really. gained and quit one job... added another half point to my list, putting me at 27.5... added $400 to my debt... currently back at square one: unemployed, broke, and single. however, with any luck i'll manage to get drunk sometime within the next 2 weeks. also, monday's agenda consists of more hunting. you know, job hunting gets so old. i guess it would help if i tried harder... or even gave 2 shits about it. stupid blockbuster. i may have hated it, but at least i was making some money. oh well... anything else? not really. i have no glory. all of my attempted glory ends in shame. i blame males. yeah, i'll stick with that.
love you all!! | | |
| I could ramble on for a few hours, but I think I'll just leave it at:
I'm a neurotic psycho, and I'm self-destructive.
Relay the questions to my secretary. | | |
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